Once, he was by my side, and then she entered my life. Time passed, and I found myself losing them both. It turned my existence into a never-ending curse. Not a single day has gone by when I haven’t desire for their presence. Countless days were spent in tears, pleading, and begging for their love, but they both left me. I still question myself of why, what, and how, until the day I faced the bitter truth – they were gone from my life. And then he arrived.
I was off track, a lonely soul in flesh and blood. Those I cherished had departed, not always by choice, but sometimes due to circumstances or a lack of time for me. And then he appeared, and I was teetering on the edge of pain. I could still feel the burn, the wounds that reminded me of the darkness I had once witnessed. It was terrifying, soul-draining, but then a hand reached out to me, offering salvation, a warm embrace. A smile so pure, without imperfections, filled with unconditional care. My new guardian angel, indeed.
Through days of suffering, tears, bleeding wounds, and moments of pain, he accepted me despite all my flaws. As I often say, he’s like a brother from another mother. My elder brother, my pillar of strength, my guardian, always there to support me, watch over me, and shield me from my inner demons and external foes. He’s my partner in crime.
I can’t help but smile when I reminisce about our drinking sessions and the way we carried on. We fought, we argued, and sometimes I uttered foolish words, but he never abandoned me. He always held me close, like a parent cradling their child, to protect me as his own flesh and blood. Whether it was night or day, summer or winter, in darkness or emptiness, he was there, unwavering and constant.
Today, physically, he may be distant, but I know he’s still here with me. Despite the miles that separate us, he continues to hold a special place in my heart. The certainty of our future meeting remains unknown, but his role in my life is in constant flux; he occupies a place next to the throne.
My love, my friend, my brother, my guardian angel—I long for you.
The World I See! 